Runaway to the Stars: Page 263

Whatcha doing Talita? Uh... yawning?

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Talita sets down her tablet on her bedside dresser, which is ringing for "Unknown #." She sits stiffly on her bed gripping her neck and face, watching the tablet buzz as no one picks up.

She begins to tremble. Seemingly against her own will, Talita begins to strain forward against her own hands, trunk curled tighter and tighter, mouth opening wider and wider, her sharp beak-like teeth exposed by her snarling lips.

Runaway to the Stars: Page 263

Whatcha doing Talita? Uh... yawning?

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Talita sets down her tablet on her bedside dresser, which is ringing for "Unknown #." She sits stiffly on her bed gripping her neck and face, watching the tablet buzz as no one picks up.

She begins to tremble. Seemingly against her own will, Talita begins to strain forward against her own hands, trunk curled tighter and tighter, mouth opening wider and wider, her sharp beak-like teeth exposed by her snarling lips.

141 thoughts on “Runaway to the Stars: Page 263

  1. Rad Internet Stranger

    It’s incredible how well you convey emotion. Talita is an alien and though she’s been conditioned to use our expressions, in cases such as this, she uses instinctive expressions rather than learned. To us it looks more like Talita is utterly furious and the only reason we know that she’s instead having a panic attack (and very likely crying) is the context of the previous pages and what we know of her. If any of us saw her make this expression without context, I can guarantee that we’d all interpret it as angry, at least at a first glance.

    You’re an incredibly talented artist and storyteller, Jay. Now, please give Talita all the hugs for us, she deserves a break from all this torment ;-;

  2. MyUniverseinaBox

    Coming back because this page is sO FUCKING COOL
    I can hear the white noise becoming more high pitched and overbearing, as it drowns everything else out, and the fact that I know Talita likely isn’t making any sounds, and how honestly terrifying it is to see her this way. I mean most of the comic we’ve seen her looking goofy or pretty or elegant or silly or powerful (in regards to her being very buff), but THIS? THIS??? Her jaw opening this wide, the fact that we can’t see her eyes at all, It’s such RAW emotion, I’m LOOSING MY MIND

  3. Holy fuck this is well drawn.

  4. My favorite page yet. So emotionally raw and visceral. Beautifully done, even though it’s painful to watch

  5. It’s like being buried alive, isn’t it, Talita?

    The way every single day brings either a new crisis, or a new loss, or both?

    The way you never seem to have time for yourself, but always have to give time for others?

    The way every way out disappears on you, until the only solutions seem to be either to let it happen, or risk everything, even your life, to escape into the unknown?

    I know how that feels.

  6. CALCERY FUCKN ANSWER!!
    (Pls for the love of gourd she needs you!)

  7. Proud of Talita for reaching out in this moment instead of trying to withdraw!

  8. Ooh a panic attack, how fun. What a good and normal time everyone is having.

  9. Jay you’re SO GOOD AT COMICS UGH

    the way her shiver lines are connected and lead you through the panels……. the way she is BREAKING OUT of those panels because her emotions cannot be contained…….. the emotions you convey to such a depth…….. i love RttS

  10. MyUniverseinaBox

    Jesus christ that’s kind of terrifying
    I get the feeling that this is crying… my heart, it hurts

  11. ooo i like that the trunk resembles a clenched fist. guessing the ‘yawning’ motion looks to be an involuntary stress response like how humans shed tears? i know centaurs version of laughing derived from play panting, so it’d be interesting to see how crying came to be—that is, if she is indeed crying, but given the context & paneling, there’s no way she isn’t on the verge of sobbing. poor baby.

  12. jay as always your panels and your arts are TOP TIER!!!!!!
    talita…………. ;A;

  13. Let’s all hold hands in a circle and hope Mel barges in to ask how it went and then they both talk it over and everything gets fixed :DDD and then they all live happily ever after :DDD (i have no idea what happens next this is wishful thinking)

  14. Wow woah woah woo what is she doing? It looks freaky. Is her jaw supposed to open this wide? Jeez…

    1. Talita is yawning, you don’t need to worry👍

    2. This is almost certainly Centaur sobbing, which involves shaking/trembling and jaw snapping involuntarily, as per the emotion guide at least. Poor Talita is not having a good time!

  15. she better be calling bip i need them to lock inOHHHYMGFOD

    1. Bip has always been labeled “unknown #” on Talita’s phone and Gillie’s computer. I guess this can’t be “come pick me up I need to leave with you,” but I’m sure she’s calling Bip.

      The only reason I can think of for Bip not picking up is that they’re for some reason being forced to pretend not to exist… but why that wouldn’t mean a phone call, I don’t know. Unless Bip is doing some sort of server maintenance?

  16. I Have No Vocal Cords in my Throat and I Must Scream

    1. I COMMENTED FOR THE FIRST TIME JUST TO SAY HOW MUCH I LAUGHED AT THIS THANK YOU😭😭

  17. These pages are really well done, the way that you use the backgrounds and borders to really express how talitia is feeling is, unghagsjskdhsjwosbdksjsb its so good

  18. TALITA NOOOOO BABY I’M GIVJG YOU AN ENORMOIS HUG DESPITE MY TINY BODY COMPARED TO YOURS

    1. Let’s make it a group hug, we can all pile onto her

  19. milk4evertoasted

    no.. noooo… talita. I understand ..
    I remember when I was a fussier, more volatile autistic kid,I would bite objects or myself because I was so overwhelmed… talita..

    1. i used to bite things as a kid too, but then id feel bad for the things i bit (lol?) so it instead became silent seething

  20. Mango The Captain

    Yeah, that face is relatable

    1. Mango The Captain

      I can remember how hard it is to keep your mouth closed as well (I always tried anyway and failed)

  21. FuzzySpiderPawz

    Ohhhhh Talita :((( Bip (at least I assume it’s Bip) please pick up she really needs this

    1. FuzzySpiderPawz

      Although I guess it could be Calcery?

  22. I’m confused, I read this page as an unknown number calling Talita? But reading the comments, it seems I’m in the minority here. Am I missing something?

    That out of the way, Talita needs all the hugs she’s comfortable receiving, right now. Poor girl has such a rotten time of it right now…

    1. when you receive a call, your phone is not gonna display “Calling…” on the screen. this is also confirmed on the transcript of the page.

      1. Aah, I see. Sorry, the Unknown# threw me completely.
        Thanks!

    2. i thought it was bip, they’ve shown up on talita’s phone as unknown caller before

  23. TotallySomebody

    Oooagh no I don’t like it I want to make Talita happy I want to give her all her favorite things. And a hug maybe.

  24. Bip please pick up, Talita needs this! She need to runaway to the stars!

  25. Poor thing, she should honestly take this as a sign to leave at this point. Hope she gets the ability to apologise and explain to the centurs her human upbringing including mannerisms and expressions.

  26. I know centaurs speak through their trunk, but from a human perspective it gives the impression Talita is trying not to scream.

    1. Well her trunk is all crumpled up too so maybe…..

  27. Brb throwing my slipper at Mel REALLY HARD

    1. I am going to grease all of the doorknobs in their life.

      1. i’m going to put tacks on all the chairs they ever sit in forever

  28. Must be nice to cry without getting your glasses all smudged up. Source: am glasses wearer, have experienced emotions. I lost a pair of prescription sunglasses that way. Took them off to cry, put them down, and that’s the last I remember seeing them. Still haven’t found them.

  29. Waugh 😭
    This page is gorgeously illustrated and I feel so bad for her…. Wonder who she’s phoning cos I feel like my first thoughts would be saved numbers. The comments saying it might be Bip though might be onto something…

    1. If I was colluding with a pirate I would not save their number on what might be a company device either

  30. The composition of this page and the last couple are absolutely gorgeous. Stunning use of panels and space to convey Talita’s mindset.

  31. coitada : (

  32. This sucks for her but her little feets sitting on the bed are so cute

    1. I JUST noticed how she’s sitting. Oh her feets. I *just* saw a tumblr poll about ‘do you like this furries feet’ (wild that they call her a furry) for Talita and honestly. I GET IT. SHE GOT CUTE FEETS (PLATONIC). (feel free to delete this comment if it feels toooooooo,,, mentioning of furry feet for the public).
      But the way she gets to both dangle her feet off the bed AND grip the bed with them, that’s gotta be satisfying. I am now… contemplating the dexterity of her walkin hooves vs her hand-hooves. Can those front walking hooves grab things like her hands or are they built DIFFERENT?

      1. I thought that guy was creepy, I blocked them like instantly.

      2. They look pretty much the same as her hands but I wont be surprised if the front hands are biased a little more towards dexterity with more fine muscle control. From what I’ve read on the centaur lore page, a common hunting strategy involves just grabbin their prey with the 2 sets of hands/feet and teeth and tackling them to the ground. Human feet are also pretty flexible and some people are really good at grabbing stuff with their toes cause like, monkey ancestors and all

      3. There’s probably a lot heavier muscle development in the walking feet than the furthest front limbs, since they bear weight most of the time, so maybe they’re slightly less dextrous?

  33. *glazes over the emotional aspects* YEAR 2333! Woo! A scifi story that doesn’t obfuscate the year with 2XXX or ‘new year designation like BC/AD, so its technically 2000 but 2000 HC or somethin’. Actually that second ones not a bad idea, maybe I’ll use that in my own story. But I’m fixated on the date like ‘WOW. So much can CHANGE in such a small amount of time. Not that three centuries is small. But wow.’ Is it official *when* aliens/first contact happened in this story? I’ll have to check the World tabs again.
    Wonder if this comic will get a ‘call back to old media, its officially 2333 when RTTS was taking place woo’ (but if this comic is right, that’s like expecting somethin like Ancient Egyptian Transcripts being super popular in modern times… But who knows, maybe I’ll pass down the books through my lineage).

    Okay back to the emotional aspects, everyones said somethin I woulda said already honestly, it’s just good shit. Not for Talita. But the illustration, the FEELING, the comic structure, all Very Good. GIRL NEED A HUG. FROM TEN THOUSAND LIGHTENING BBUGS (move girl I wanna see that poster behind you).

    1. I mean, yeah. Three centuries ago from our current time was the Industrial Revolution.

  34. oh my goodness this is so much emotion in one single page. My heart strings are being yanked so hard. (amazing story, please keep pulling them!)

  35. bip we need you to lock in and save talita

  36. Oh Talita, oh darling TQT

  37. *aggressively and wildly gestures to the name of the webcomic*

    1. As comforting as it is remembering that she does eventually leave and everything gets better, I still feel wildly anxious of the thought of her having to spend another day in this toxic work environment pretending everythings fine.

      1. Augh, same. Was watching one of Jay’s art streams last night on one of the upcoming pages for next chapter and I literally had some kind of quasi-lucid predictive stress dream about it??? 😭😭😭 It’s such a high stakes situation, and with chapter ten being as long as it’s projected to be… This is gonna be a hell of a ride

        1. I’m not ready augh I don’t know how much more Talita plinko I can handle

  38. Talita might be feeling sad at the moment but she can always take solace in having overcome one of the great engineering challenges of the universe: how to get your charging cable to sit neatly on your bedside table and not immediately slither onto the floor like a stroppy snake.

    1. She accidentally used up all her luck points on that

  39. When the Talita plinko finally hits the bottom

    1. into the low quality fire gif you go

      1. And then she gets flung right back to the top

  40. The “please please please I never ever want to leave my room or be seen by anyone ever again” pose… We’ve all been there girl 🫂

    1. i just had a moment like this today myself oh god no… D: as if i needed another reason to wanna give her a big hug…

  41. And we reach the breaking point.

    Whoever picks up on the other end of the line will end on a truly awful sight. Talita is just going to be a total mess of cry, hope their will know how to react to that.

    For several pages now, we have been complaining about Mel’s incompetence, but I’ve remained coolly analytical. I’ve been observing the events from a distance and watching the characters develop with a touch of humor. It’s a story one on wich I really invested in, but nothing personal.
    Now, is personal.
    I honestly feel deep anger and hatred toward Mel. It’s real and personal one.
    What is happening here is, and I say this in all seriousness, a traumatic level event. This anxiety attack will leave a deep mark on Talita’s psyche. It is absolutely heartbreaking to watch such an event unfold right before your eyes, feeling powerless to do anything about it. There can be no forgiveness, ever.

    1. I mean, I understand your anger, but Mel wasn’t the one who abandoned Talita as an infant, Mel wasn’t the one who advised Talita be culled instead of fostered with a centaur… A lot of systems have led to this moment and pinning it on one person like this feels like disrespecting Talita’s pain and its source. Even if Mel had been the most compassionate, well-meaning, connected manager in the world, nothing would automatically make Talita a centaur-y centaur, and it’d be outright discrimination to deal with it by never hiring other centaurs.

      1. Mel isn’t responsible for all of Talita’s issues, but they are the architect of the situation.

        Mel’s behavior drove the coworker Talita got along best with to quit. They then pushed Talita into a managerial role over temporary workers with poor discipline in a dangerous environment with no training. They’ve created an environment where their employees realise there is no point in raising issues as Mel will belittle the issues or insist that it isn’t a problem. When Talita came to Mel for assistance with the temps despite that, Mel belittled the issue. Mel then deliberately did not inform Talita that the next group of temps would be a centaur clan and instructed others of the plant to not inform Talita to make it a surprise.

        And that’s what we can say with 100% certainty. It’s highly likely that Mel passed over applicants for the temp position just because the centaurs were centaurs so that Talita could be with “her own people”.

        All of this is “bad manager of the century” material, before you consider Mel’s relation to Talita as foster parent, which means they should be aware of Talita’s needs. And yet they seem to be operating against them.

        Mel may not be actively being malicious, but their actions make people’s lives harder as they don’t seem to fully stop and think about them or check what other people want. And this is the 3rd known time of this occurring.

        1. I’m not defending Mel. Talita just carries this pain no matter what. Eventually, even if not here, Talita was going to encounter another centaur, and was going to be rejected by that centaur, because the way she was raised is so at odds with what centaurs expect. Eventually, something was going to poke a really sharp stick into this sore spot. Saying this is entirely Mel’s fault dismisses that in a way that doesn’t sit right with me, that’s all. It takes the focus away from the existential pain no one really can solve.

        2. reply to @goose
          That argument do not work. Sure, some day Talita should have faced this situation and I’m with Idrisah that avoiding them is not a good strategy in the long run.

          But this is something she have to control of, doing it at her own pace in an environment she can control, and with thorough mental preparation about it.
          Not be cruch in her face, like stabing in her back, especialy by someone she trusted and whom she naturally turned to for help before.

          You don’t teach someone to swim by throwing them into the water.

          Maybe you not defending Mel, but you downplayed their responsibilities and that not good eaither.

      2. Counterpoints: Mel is the one who got Talita promoted to a manager role she was clearly ill suited for. Mel is the one who promised to be there for her then refused to act when Talita tried to make an official complaint even though it’s literally their job. Mel is the one bleeding talent like Calercy and replacing them with mostly bad tempts. Mel is the one who denied Talita the opportunity to think for herself if managing other Centaurs was something she was ready for, they failed to give her proper notice for very racist coded reasons and have succeeded in creating an increasingly hostile working environment. The company can hire as many new Cebtsurs as they want but expecting Talita to manage them is taking her for granted.

        1. My point being in response to the take that conflict with other Centaurs was inevitable…not necessarily she was slowly gaining knowledge at appreciation througj Bip, but and even if so, Mel exasperating the issue in the workplace by denying her the chance to step-down from the management role was blatently disregarding her personal autonomy and this incident is completely their doing. if Mel treated Talita like a normal employee who recieves notice and introductions damage could have been minimal but they still want to play “hero” when it’s convenient for them which resulted in this boundary stomping incident.

      3. Oh sure, Mel is not the single source of failure, is a complex situation.

        I only juge them fo the direct consequence of their own actions. And their are. Absolutly. Catastrophic.

        They was the “last guard”, the one that was the most power but do nothing to avoid or prevent it. Even worse, they ran into it by actively brought those events. And that because of a almost criminal level a wrong assumption and ignoring numberous feedbacks. Things are even worse when you consider that Mel isn’t just Talita’s professional manager, but was also their sponsor college, so their acquaintances for years, and they STILL ignore the felling of Talita about Centaurs, and all her fellings in general.
        No, just No. Mel fuck up in an unforgivable way. Most reasonable people would have suspected something was amiss, would have taken a step back, and would not have acted so irresponsibly. AND don’t forget that the Centaurs Temp is just the last one of long list of systemic failure of Mel part.

      4. Hanlon’s Razor: “Never attribute to malice that which is adequately explained by ignorance.”
        Equivalently: Any sufficiently advanced incompetence is indistinguishable from malice.
        Mel did not act in malice, but the end result is indistinguishable. ‘Intentions’ only matter as far as damage-control-going-forward goes. The actual resulting disaster-to-be-learnt-from cannot be undone, and Mel dropped a lot of ball-bearings that led to this particular emotional-OSHA cataclysm.

    2. I’m a brand-new reader fresh off a first-time binge (whee first comment)! I haven’t had a chance to read The Discourse since comments are a second-binge deal, but I feel the same way you do about this: Unforgivable.

      I don’t just mean that as the kneejerk response to getting the whole story-so-far in one dose without time to really analyze much. I’m the same kind of reader you seem to be, but Mel’s whole thing’s been personal to me from the moment I understood the ‘road to hell’ vibe they bring to the story.

      …Sorry for coming into this kind over-sharing, but I can’t really convey my feelings about this without sorta-kinda-disclosing my personal experience with it.

      Sometimes, people are well-meaning and ignorant. I, personally, judge people based on if they’re genuinely trying their best with what they have to work with. That’s all anyone can do! The universe is a bitch, and it’s largely luck-based on what information and resources a person will have to work with during their whole, learning-to-be-a-person-in-the-world-without-hurting-other-people thing.

      I do truly believe that. And I kind of hate that I do, because it forces me to deal with a very painful cognitive dissonance, that I’m still wrestling with — in the WWE sense, not the UFC sense. I know what the answer clearly is (so long as I keep my internal mores consistent,) but I really don’t like it and don’t know what to do about it. All I really can do is go through the requisite emotional-motions. I can’t just skip over an emotion in the process just because I know what the end result I’m coming to is. Would be much more convenient. Apparently some people CAN do that and I would very much like to know how speedrun this process, but I digress.

      ‘Good people do the best they can with what they have,’ is my personal judgement standard.

      It is very difficult to cognitively mesh that nice, tidy little ideal with the reality that the person who was ‘doing the best they could with what they had to work with’… fucked up. Severely. Fucked up in a way that’s permanently damaged you. That, even if you could snap you fingers and make them magically, immediately understand everything they did wrong, can’t be undone or fixed. That no amount of ‘sorry’ or ’empathy’ or ‘self-correction’ or ‘doing-better-going-forward’ can fix. You can’t un-break the egg, or un-whisk it, or un-mix it with the other ingredients, or un-bake the pastry, or un-eat it or un-digest it or un-shit-it-out. Those seemed like all the right things to do at the time, for the person who wasn’t the egg.

      All the dominos that fell over on the path to ‘Wow You Sure Got Fucked Up Have Fun With That I Guess’ can’t be re-righted with all the retrospect and goodwill in the world.

      And, unfortunately, damage usually leaves scars.

      Some scars are unobtrusive, and only noticed occasionally.

      Some are visibly marring and permanently debilitating.

      I love the person who gave me CPTSD. I genuinely believe he did the best he really could have done with what he had. I could go through a laundry list of ways he went above and beyond because he loved me. And, when I came to him as an adult with my grievances and retrospects, he listened and validated me and really did what he could going forward. I chose to forgive him, because I had arrived at that decision logically:

      Person did unfair thing –> I was affected –> I made person aware –> Person changed for the better in response –> Unfairness resolved –> Forgiveness, because what’s the point of staying mad? I used my Mad to do the healthy social thing it was supposed to do, no point in keeping it.

      Yeah. Turns out it did not work out like that. Because what I had failed to understand during that time in life, is that ‘Unfairness Resolved’ never happened, never would happen, and the efforts I put into trying to achieve ‘Unfairness Resolved’ would be an exhausting and — had I kept doing what I was doing — likely endless process. It is Unfair that I am saddled with the consequences of another’s control over my life. I will be saddled with these consequences forever. There is no ‘making this fair’. There’s only the solace I can take in harm reduction and damage control going forward.

      For whatever worth I can wring out of it.

      And I am reminded of that with every well-meaning, ignorant thing my loved one does and says that reminds me of what they did. Taking upon myself the responsibility of educating him in all the ways he failed was not a one-and-done process. So many little things about who he is and how he views the world fed into what I became, and you can’t just unravel all that in one sitting and… augh. You get it. Every time one of those nits pops out of the grass to bite you, it’s not just the pain of the nip but the fact that you have to make the active effort to slap it elsewise it’ll bite again. There are so many nits to slap. They are often defensive about being slapped. You are already very, very tired. You have non-nit things to be doing, and all the nit-scarring already makes it hard.

      I suppose at this point I’m just rephrasing what I’ve already said. It’s just, important to me to get this feeling across, without being mistunderstood as seething and resentful and simply not capable of forgiving. Emotional pain and physical pain register the same way in the brain, so I’m trying to get across how visceral this kind of thing can be, this kind of thing that is usually thought of as relegated to the head and heart, without the consideration that the head and heart are made of meat-goo-electricity-all-in-a-certain-shape just like the rest of you.

      Forgiving the person responsible for your trauma is like trying to forgive a dagger for stabbing you, then judging yourself for flinching whenever you catch its gleam in the corner of your eye.

      I guess I’ll finish it by re-summarizing as cleanly as I can how I feel, what it is that I am projecting onto the Mel-Talita dynamic:

      This person assumed responsibility for my care. I was and am vulnerable, and this person made my vulnerability their responsibility. This person, doing the best they could to be good to me, failed in a way that will effect me for the rest of my life going forward. For the authority figure, this failure will, at worst, be a long-lasting source of guilt from which they get to learn and become a better person.

      For me, it is a permanent part of my person. This could be in a temporary sense; as in, ‘This severe harm affected the choices I’d make and ways I felt at the time, and that in turn shaped the rest of my life in a way I can trace back like dominos’. It could, alternatively, be in the chronic sense; as in, ‘This severe harm has given me long-lasting trauma that’s physically embedded into my nervous system in a way that can never be truly undone.’ It could even be both! (Hot Life Pro Tip: It is often both.)

      So… yeah. I can’t vouch for anyone else’s experience with this type of hurt, but for me? Trying to forgive the person who has hurt me in this way has been a long-term experiment in how often I tolerate having a scar scraped open again, and again, and again, from all sorts of creative angles and edges, before I get sick of the metaphorical pain-and-infection that comes along with varying degrees of retraumatization.

      That is why I agree.

      Not for lack of a want to try.

      Simply… Unforgivable.

  42. oh talita :'[ this is such a visceral and heart-wrenching page…assuming it’s bip she’s calling, i hope they pick up. she really needs someone to talk to :[

    1. Bip’s the only person we’ve seen consistently shown as “Unknown” in Talita’s contacts, so it’s highly likely that she’s calling them, yeah. Poor girl 🙁 You really can feel the misery and strain in every inch of the page

    2. Wait, oh my god, I hadn’t even considered that it’d be Bip. Bip, Talita’s only non-judgemental connection to centaur culture that we’ve seen on page…

      1. I mean, not specifically judgmental towards Talita about it

  43. I think that was the last straw, is Talita gonna call Bip (or get called by Bip?) and decide to runaway?

    1. I wonder if you have to call all 841 of Bip’s phones before they’ll pick up?

  44. Oh no…. now *I* want to cry with her. 😭

  45. It took me a while to understand if she’s calling someone or if someone is calling her. How do you even call an unknown number? Surely if you call someone you know their number and if you don’t then you can’t call?

    1. it’s probably bip, so since they’re a piece of technology themself, maybe they’re callable without actually having a number?

    2. You might know the number, but your caller ID might not know who the number belongs to. With that said, the page is a bit ambiguous.

    3. The screen saying ‘Calling…’ indicates that she is the one calling. She presumably has this contact saved in her phone as “Unknown #” (probably because that’s what the caller ID referred to them as the first time she received a call from them) and hasn’t updated the name to reflect who it is that she’s calling.

    4. i thought it said “unknown” as in, unknown contact. presumably she knows the number because she called it but it’s not saved to her device

  46. the antler velvet blanket in the foreground of the first panel :”””””(

  47. Oh no! she’s crying 😭

    1. Poor Talia 🙁

  48. Wonder how fast she could pack up all her possessions with reliable transportation..and how many days remain until Bips scheduled departure.

  49. Ouhh, baby. 💔 I’m so sorry.
    The portrayal of the raw emotions here is just incredible.

    I wonder is she’s trying to call Calcery?

    1. That was my thought 🥺

  50. I wonder if she’s keeping her teeth apart to avoid the clicking/being heard, or if that’s a natural response to extreme stress, either way auuuughhjhhjj my heart…

  51. that seems like a lot of ringing, i get the feeling whoever she’s trying to call might not pick up 🙁

    1. if they do they wont like what they see…

    2. The feeling of waiting for a lifeline that doesn’t appear is so well conveyed.

  52. Kind of page that you feel in your bones, holy shit, Talita no…

  53. ngl it must be nice to have a crying response that doesnt result in mucous all over your face and clogging up your airways

  54. She’s calling bip……….

    1. Not sure she’d bother calling Bip – they’re pretty easy to get ahold of. She’s probably calling Calcery, or *maybe* Doug? But I imagine Doug would be a saved number, and Calcery’s new location may not be.

      1. Don’t think she could call either of them, since there’s a delay between Dirtball and Jovia/wherever Calcery is right now.

  55. OH BABY NOOOOO……

  56. Oh… Talita.
    I’ve cried like this. It hurts. It *really really* hurts.
    Like your body is shaking itself apart. You can’t even make noise because your throat is so tense.
    Your stomach feels knotted, you can hear your heart in your ears, every sob feels like your back is being broken because your muscles are clenched.
    And your eyes hurt.

  57. Oh poor girl…
    The page is so nicely done though. The dark static around her that fades as she starts to cry. The way her glasses white out to hide her eyes. How visceral her expression is in the last two panels. Feeling so much and so intensely that the panels can’t contain her.

    1. And don’t think I don’t see the gifted otter wind spinner hanging nearby as whoever Talita’s calling (I’m going to guess Calcery) doesn’t answer!

      1. BIP! BIP! I’m guessing she’s calling Bip, not Calcery. lol.

  58. OH GOD I KNEW IT
    I KNEW THE CHAPTER LOGO WAS HER TEETH CLACKING TOGETHER BECAUSE SHE WAS SAD

    1. WAIT I never noticed there were chapter logos

  59. The page composition is amazing. You can just feel the pain in your bones.

    1. You are right, I can feel the pain in my bones!
      Specifically my shin bones where I smacked them on a sticking out trailer hitch while carrying a large box at work yesterday.

      Also: yes, this comic is great!

  60. Oh this page is so good, one of my favorites so far. I love how the world around her turns to static as everything hits her at once.

  61. otter windspinner makes an appearance!! AAAGGGGGH THIS IS SO WELL DRAWN… dripping with emotion!!!

    1. Also, antler velvet blanket.

      1. you’re right! Wait aaaaa it’s so heartbreaking, the contrast in these two instances of her interacting with centaur culture…

  62. ohh talita. oh girl i’m sorry.
    BEAUTIFUL page by the way. that anatomy of her mouth is fantastic. but oh man. we get to see those teeth again. I wonder if maybe she’s trying to call doug? or maybe she’s calling bip and deciding to go with them.

  63. oh my god crying when you don’t even have the mechanisms to create tears is soulcrushing

  64. Accursed Dirt Boar

    Oh, she is trying to call Calcery again…
    Alas, he too has already run away….. to the stars

    1. OH. i didn’t even think about how it could be calcery. ohhh talita.

    2. I thought she was trying to call Bip

      1. it probably IS bip she’s calling. since whenever she calls them they’re only displayed as “unknown #”. like when she called them after running on the treadmill l and it would make more sense to call bip since they have more experience with centaurs and could hopefully give her some advice about the gwailer clan and centaurs in general (so she at least doesnt end up ACTING like a freak in front of them again)

    3. Wouldn’t the number name read “Calcery” instead of “Unknown” if she were calling him? Also, based on how disconnected she’s felt from Calcery ever since he left, I’m not sure if she would feel comfortable coming to him for comfort, especially given the context.

      1. How do you call an “unknown number” in any case? Must be those quantum phones again (where the number ceases to be callable as soon as you have it displayed) …

        1. Quantum Phones! Get yours today!

          Pros – Very fast and powerful processor!

          Cons – May spontaneously become a wave!

        2. She presumably has this contact saved in her phone as “Unknown #” (probably because that’s what the caller ID referred to them as the first time she received a call from them) and hasn’t updated the name to reflect who it is that she’s calling.

      2. Hoping it’s Bip. Only reason I can think for Calcery was if she wanted to know if they also knew about Mels “suprise” bur that seems less likly.

  65. lilathaplepeela

    GIVE. HER. A. HUG.

    NOW!!!!

  66. Holy shit this page is incredible. There’s others with better paneling or more challenging poses or backgrounds or whatever, but this one just… fuck man. Thats really how it feels. It conveys the emotion so strongly.

  67. Poor Talita 🙁 I hope things smooth over between her and Verengt, it’s a very awful and uncomfortable situation overall for both parties.

  68. Oh Talita…

    1. I want to tell her; forget waiting until the old temps contracts are done, just start packing and dont let anyone besides your 3 real friends know. Make it as much of a suprise as possible for management, Mel loves surprises!

      1. We don’t give Mel enough credit. Without their surprises, Talita would never go with Bip on a space adventure! I guess Mel really was the parent Talita needed all along! [/s x1000]

        1. More like antagonist Talita needed, although arguably she might have been more inclined to quit sooner if Mel didn’t keep sending mixed messages about if they saw her only as a worker drone or as a family/friend.

        2. opps just noticed the sarcasm sign

        3. Your benevolence shows in that you didn’t notice the sarcasm tag and still chose not to eat me alive for being nice to Mel LMAO

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